My current situation

So it has been awhile since I've had a chance to post here. Not that I really didn't have a chance but I haven't been compelled to write very much lately, I have been kinda busy around the house I am building a shed of the property to house all my belongings and that has taken up a fair amount of time the last week but what have I been doing since October.

I was working for RBI for a while about six months I imagine. That job turned into a nightmare but I'm glad to be away from it and I am looking for something local that I would like to do instead of driving over the road truck again.

I went to the 9 News health fair in Berthoud, Colorado the other day, just had to pay a small fee to get my bloodwork done and I also had my vision and my feet checked. There was a mental-health professional there, and we had a little chat. He asked me why I felt the need to talk with him and I explained that I still didn't feel like I was on my feet again even after six years since Corey's death. I think I almost had him crying but we had a good chat and I felt a little better afterwards but he suggested that I get some mental-health and maybe even get on some medication for depression. I don't know, sometimes it feels like it's better to feel too much than to feel too little. And being on medication for depression would limit the amount that I feel during the day.
It was odd that he agreed with me that I was torturing myself over Corey's death , I suppose it was the best conversation I have had with a man about Corey's passing. It just doesn't seem to be something most men are able to talk about with me.

He agreed also that the grieving process in this country really sucks. That we don't have the proper rituals to help us grieve. I am thoroughly disgusted with the amount of support that I received after Corey passed away. It was like most people just felt that I should tough it out as a man, that I didn't need the same support that Lynette got. I really do think it was disgusting

Well it is time to get to bed is 3:15 in the morning and I need to get up and work on the shed in the morning for awhile before I head to Greeley