I will always think of him

I was thinking about James,
James killed himself a couple years ago. I feel like I saw it coming but couldn't stop it It was like a glacier, slowly moving, cold and deep never really know what was beneath the surface. I was really mad at him for awhile I still think he was an idiot but you could never tell james anything. He had his own thoughts and was willing to fight to have you see his way only.

I thank him for thinking I could learn computers I wish he was here to build and fix computers with, we would be having a ball.
We had alot in common computers, guns, porn, i wish I could understand what made him give up on life so easily He said he was just waiting to die. at 27 that just didn't make any sense to me
I know alot had happened to him but doesn't alot happen to us all

I do miss you james I will always wonder what you wanted me to do ?
I know whenever I hear that song that you said you loved so much I will think of you 6'0'' is so far down.